hate letter

what if i took the mask off?

I hate mediocrity, I hate people that have the ability to be great but spend their whole life avoiding themselves

I hate that the world is burning

I hate that everyone is looking around for someone to save them from the problems they created

I hate when someone tries to fix a logical problem with an emotion

I hate that lately my smile has been a mask

I hate that white people have been ‘trying’ for hundreds of years but shit’s still the same

I hate avoidance

I hate changing my mind after I’ve already decided what I know is best

I hate not talking about what’s wrong

I hate second guessing myself

I hate that instead of gratitude, I got criticism

I hate that my people and family continue to suffer in silence

I hate that I worked so hard to get nothing in return

I hate not being able to say what I think

I hate having to pretend everything is fine

I hate knowing that everyone will hurt me

I hate that so many relationships cannot hold honesty

I hate that what I hate in others I see in myself

I hate that growing closer to something means growing further away from someone else

I hate unexpected goodbyes

I hate that honoring my own needs often means I have to be alone

I hate being troubled by the same thing time and again

I hate having to repeat myself to someone that isn’t willing to recieve

I hate being misunderstood, looking in familiar eyes and seeing an unfamilar soul

I hate moving quickly without being able to think

I hate feeling obligated

I hate explaining why I’m upset just for the same behavior to be repeated

I hate feeling used

I hate shrinking myself

I hate relationships that feel like a constant test

I hate wasting my own time

I hate having to hold back my hearts song

I hate being disappointed by people I love

I hate the normalization of disrespect

I hate that the most beautiful people struggle to see beauty in themselves

I hate that I have to let go